How do I even begin this.
Ok, Well after 3 years of studying Animation and graphic design, I have come to the conclusion that I really suck at it. Ok You might see my art now...
But The only program I have been using is Adobe Illustrator CS5 - CS6. I tried
Adobe Photoshop, Maya and Flash... And I can't comprehend the programs.
It really stresses me a lot. I just want to flip the computer and do it all by myself using my hands. Programs have vast tools that I yet understand.
I have new respect for those who know how to handle the programs. You guys are GENIOUS!
I have the tendency of not understanding the computer language... and the people that use it
I dont know what your talking about... And for that I should be puched in the face.
As the programs update and new programs appear, I get more and more lost and confused.
Specially when the teachers expect me to know that much when I just discovered that the program exists.(Ok maybe I'm exaggerating a little).
But I do hate when they tell me "Oh its easy you'll see "
Like really... I get stuck with them and see that its really not!
LISTEN YOU! ITS NOT EASY DAMN IT!
"Just because you have no talent or knowledge doesn't mean it's the programs fault. You have to do better or get out of here... "
Well shit. I hate it when they put me in that position. Ok Its my fault. I hate the programs really. But it doesn't mean I don't try or that I don't ask for help.
I do ask for help and I do try my best.
But I always end up getting upset because MAYBE I could've done better and the only thing I have manage to do is a mediocre job.
The only program I get along well is Illustrator. And yet people keep telling me that is easier to use... But that's BULLSHIT!
I do get in trouble with other students with the way I think. Well I do have different point of views and opinions on art
So I often don't get a long with most of them.
To them I'm like this strange creature from out of space that goes berserk when I cant understand something
How can I not? Is something I'm going to be working fro the rest of my life. I blame my ADD and Dyslexia...
Ok maybe its no fair to blame my condition. People like me deal with this diferently. We may have the same condition but we all work it out diferently.
So I decided to study something else that is related to art but not directly to programs.
Maybe something like Make up... I like gore and weird shits. Like Charms... 3D figures... Idk. Something that is not programs.
Maybe working on different types of cosplay to sell or to show.
I realized that I like to work with wigs and props...
Its ridiculous that it took me fucking 3 years
Like really it feels good to just talk about this
But man I'm slow.